I can see all the way to the horizon, I can; the sky is that hot English August turquoise blue, so vivid it seems alive, and the sea, with the sun glancing off it, is a burning white. Hills for miles, skylarks, still, and fields full of corn and wheat and things just waiting for harvest. Miles and miles of view and, finally, hardly a cloud under the sky.
That, metaphorically, is the view for me right now: I’m happy and well, and there are things that upset me sometimes, but the same kind of ’sometimes’ as any healthy person. I made it out from under the clouds. Right now I don’t think there’s anything else I have to say within the remit of this blog – so I’m taking a break. I may be back.
I’m not taking this blog down, and I’ll keep checking up and moderating reasonably often. I’m also still blogging at On The Brink, of course.
It feels odd to be leaving aside something which for so long has been a part of my life – both the blog and the being depressed – but it’s time, and personally, I’m excited to see what happens now; what’s on that horizon.
Live long and prosper, all of you; fare thee well.
Jenny
4 Comments
April 21, 2009 at 7:46 pm
It’s a good feeling, innit?
April 21, 2009 at 7:52 pm
I’m not sure yet. Since I wrote that I’ve seen a couple of things that it would be well within the remit of Cloudlife to comment upon, but I don’t think I will – it isn’t necessary, it’s all been said.
I think it will be a good feeling, but right now it’s a bit like that feeling when you realise you’ve gone on holiday and forgotten your journal – slightly stripped of some kind of comfort blanket… (or indeed like the feeling I got when I realised I’d left Ninia at university – she’s my teddy, who has slept somewhere in my bed most nights for the past nineteen and a half years whether I pay her any attention or not, but I probably shouldn’t admit to that…).
May 6, 2009 at 8:43 am
All things come to an end, and sometimes that’s a good thing =)
May 6, 2009 at 2:42 pm
It’s finally starting to feel fine that I have nothing to say here any more, and no reason to say anything – the odd bad day is only to be expected, and it isn’t a continuation of anything, and as long as I can stop myself from panicking when I have a bad day and thinking, shit, here we go again, then I’ll be fine. So yes. Definitely A Good Thing