About

Dear Reader,

This is a strictly anonymous blog: my name is not real, my email address is that of a very good friend, and you will never find out who I am.

I am here to write about my experiences of life as a young woman suffering from depression. This is for a whole bunch of reasons which I’ll try to explain, and which will hopefully become more obvious anyway. I’ve read a few books about depression from the perspective of sufferers and the people who watched those people suffer; I particularly liked Trouble In My Head by Mathilde Monaque, available at Amazon in translation here, and somewhere else in the original french. But all the books out there are about people who suffer from this so badly that it strips them of their ability to function in day-to-day life, when there are actually so many of us out there who do make it through without, to an outside view, any obvious trouble.

I just wanted to write down how I experience this thing, in my ordinary life, how and whether I cope. Not to preach or to offer advice, but merely to just be there. Because I met up with a new friend recently, and we ended up talking about how we’re both depressed (it’s not that odd – she’s a very close friend of my sister’s, and my sister had told her to talk to me about how I was feeling because I’ve not been good recently and my sister thought this friend could help). Just hearing about our shared experiences really made me feel better.

So that’s what I’m doing here: I’m trying to bring this to everyone. There will be things you experience differently from me – it’s not exactly a cut-and-dried diagnosis, depression, there are as many ways of suffering it as there are people suffering – but I hope this will make you and me feel that bit less alone. And if I find out about services or books or something that have really helped me I’ll put them up here too – and if you have anything you want me to flag up or check out, put a link into a comment for me and I’ll have a look.

One word of warning though – I’m really not the most out-going of people. I am very unlikely to get in touch outside of dialogue through blog comments and such. I don’t have a contact page or anything like that. So with that in mind, this is who I am and what I do;

Yours,

Lucie.