Interesting Events

Quite apart from last night being the most bizarre evening I’ve spent in a long while, starting in a fantastic Eighties disco and going on to a fantastically seedy-shiny casino and then finally some random guys house, with the theft of a bowl of wasabi peas and many miniature adventures along the way, quite apart [...]

I’ve Been Hinting At This One For A While Now.

Did you notice?
It’s something I struggle to talk about. I don’t think it’s made me the way I am, because I was depressed before it happened, but it’s a contributing factor. It has a way of sneaking up on me, catching me unawares, and ruining a perfectly good day just by springing into my mind, [...]

Sojourn

I just went for the weekend to visit assorted friends in a neighbouring city, including the man who has made me so ridiculously miserable of late – I had to help him out with a production he was doing. It ended late, and I had to stay at his house afterwards, so he went and [...]

This Has Been Going On For A Long Time Now.

This is an excerpt from my diary from January this year, just to show myself – and everyone else – how long this has been a problem in one form or another. I was unhappy then, and of course the way your brain responds to stress and unhappiness is to shut down, shut things out, [...]

Dragged Down

A friend of mine. I say friend, I mean lover, though he had a girlfriend all along. I didn’t become the Other Woman until I became too depressed to be anything but morally weak; I’ve always prided myself on being just about a good enough person to ignore how much I was falling for him, [...]

Stars and Things

There was a boy, once. A while back.
A week away, doing a course, drama, maybe, or music. I’d left someone behind at home, no commitment, just my heart. But there was this boy, there, at the course. Funny, flirtatious, good-looking, quick-witted, clever. He made me feel like I was all those things too, and he [...]