More nightmares, every few weeks, and only more common now I have S. Not sure why that should be except that maybe as I’m learning to trust him I’m stripping myself bare of a lot of things, and my injuries are open to the air once more and it’s like ripping off so many plasters [...]
Posts Tagged as ‘Good Day’
August 1, 2009
So, I’m Back.
Not sure how long this return will last. My, this feels weird. Hello, everyone. Not that anyone is still checking up on this place, but, well, yes.
Here is some stuff. I was fine for a while, and yes, I had the odd bad day, and the odd panic attack and long low days and lots [...]
April 21, 2009
Into The Blue…
I can see all the way to the horizon, I can; the sky is that hot English August turquoise blue, so vivid it seems alive, and the sea, with the sun glancing off it, is a burning white. Hills for miles, skylarks, still, and fields full of corn and wheat and things just waiting for [...]
April 7, 2009
New Look
Thoughts?
I saw this graffiti in Amsterdam and I thought it was beautiful. I was in Amsterdam about this time last year, which is why I was looking there for ’springtime’ pictures to put up as my new header over at On The Brink, and I saw this, and some other graffiti shots, and I thought, [...]
March 19, 2009
Someone
In my other blog, ‘Someone’ has become a handy shorthand for the boyfriend I don’t have. The one who exists purely in my mind, laughs at me good-naturedly and tries to hide the fact that he adores me, likes the things that I like, challenges me, spends rainy sunday mornings companionably drinking coffee and reading [...]
March 16, 2009
Figaro
I just went home for the weekend to see the Marriage of Figaro. Hoped to catch up with a couple of people including some home friends and my grandmother, but our various plans fell through and instead I found myself going on a couple of beautiful walks with my family, which was great. Saw some [...]
February 28, 2009
Retrospective Shocker.
Apparently when things got really bad last term my housemates were planning on ringing the health service and getting me transferred to Psych.
It still surprises, shocks and terrifies me that I got to that point, where I wasn’t moving for hours on end, just staying in bed, waiting for time to pass. It never does. [...]
January 29, 2009
Weird.
It’s odd. You have an OK few days, few weeks, where you feel great, you get things done, and life is good, and you look back and you wonder what on earth stopped you from being OK before. When you can get out of bed, now, and sort out your room, and organise driving lessons, [...]
January 12, 2009
Just a Quick Note To Say…
I am determined not to let this beat me. That is all. I am determined to be happy, and this is what I will do: be happy, be organised, be sorted. Get exercise, eat well, and for god’s sake, fight.
P.S. today is a good day, a very good day. I started packing, I have done [...]
January 9, 2009
This Week of Respite
I realised today that I haven’t been alright in a long time, because I’ve started realising and recognising things about myself that I hardly even remembered about myself, or didn’t even know in the first place, because I’ve been depressed, I think, on and off, for my entire thinking life. I remember feeling like I [...]
