Stop It, Stop It, Stop It.

I knew I was in for it for a while. I wasn’t feeling wonderful, and this came out in my behaviour – loud and funny and attention-seeking and a bit drunken and annoying, and overdone and lurid but it was either that or do nothing, say nothing, be nothing, so of course I went for [...]

Seasonally Affected?

So, the sun has come out. Beautiful. But it’s made me all sad and wistful and worried, like time is running out on me and the things I could do in the time I have, and it scares me and saddens me, and this is where it all began – when the summer began to [...]

Hmm.

I’m starting to see what was meant by ‘very anxious’. Last night I was meant to go out with an old friend, and I’d been looking forward to it, I was going to have a great night – nothing special, just clean good mildly drunken fun, but then, just when I was about to leave, [...]

Losing My Mind In Real Time.

Hello.
I have had a bad day. Firstly I had to instruct A how to cook a casserole I said I’d do, because I had an essay to finish, so I desperately needed a sous-chef. And for heaven’s sake, he was cooking for his ex-girlfriend, so I probably shouldn’t have had to cook in the first [...]

It Only Got Worse

Today I was meant to watch Children of Men with A, one of my flatmates, and then go to bed; probably about now. Instead, I called S to arrange my visit to his university to help out with the theatre group he’s put together. S is an old friend and an old flame, with a [...]